So, only 2 weeks to go till we fly off to Florida and I am so very excited :0) I can't wait to be spending 2 uninterrupted weeks with my wonderful boyfriend. I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to us spending the time together or the theme parks more!

I have been doing some serious dieting/exercising to try and make my body bikini worthy and with only 14 days left to go I don't honestly think I'll get to my goal. On average I have been working out 4 times a week, involving a mixture of aerobics, spin classes and circuit training. I am in the best shape I think I've been in since puberty but still not where I wanted to be. In all truthfulness I did have a huge gorge out this weekend and only managed 2 workout sessions so have probably put on a couple of pounds. If I want to get to my goal I will need to lose on average, 1lb every other day. Is this even possible? We shall see...

Remember what the Monty Python boys used to say?

For days now I've had the nauseous feeling in my throat. I don't know what's caused it but it's been making me very emotional of late, as my boyfriend experienced tonight. I probably became disproportionally upset over something that at another time would have hurt my feelings but not to the level I was. Don't get me wrong, I was no wild banshee, but I tried to get my point across.

The thing is, I've learnt from experience that not speaking up to someone when you're upset by their actions is not the eat thing to do. Giving someone an easy life will not make them love/ like ;0) you any more. Not wanting to cause disagreements does not lead to eternal happiness.

So, there we go. Sometimes I am just a weepy girl that thinks sometimes boys should just get 'it' without having to explain 'it'. I love the Sliding Doors line that went something like "I'm a woman, I don't tell you what I want, but I reserve the right to be pissed off if I don't get it".

However, I am also a girl who realises I have a pretty special boyfriend who doesn't tell me to get a grip when I'm having a 'moment'. I like that you listen to me and take on board my teary ramblings.

Sometimes a girl just needs to feel like a priority, especially when she has a nauseous feelig in her throat for no reason. So thanks Boo, thanks for being someone I can tell when I'm saddened and thanks for making it better afterwards.

My thoughts, they are a strange...

This is weird. My boyfriend and I spoke on the phone more before we were together than now. Whenever I had a drink I would dial. On the odd occasion he had a drink (awesome memories of "ahhhh I wasn't supposed to call you") he would dial. And we could speak for ages and ages, about, well nothing.

Now we're together and going on holiday together in September, I think I've clocked up 30 mins talk time max... in over 5 months(yes it has been that long) Just struck me as strange really, that we have less to say to eachother now.

However, there are many thing we do do more of since we've become an item to compensate.

Just realized how that sounded lol!!

Have you seen it?

Not my boyfriend this time... As soon as I posted te last blog I had a txt from him saying 'night night' so all is forgiven but not forgotten, because I NEVER forget.

No, this time I mean my appetite. Which is very strange for me as although I do have a reputation for being forgetful and losing things, my hunger is never one of the things that goes missing.

However, if anyone should find it could they please leave it where it is as I don't want it back this side of Florida. Am on a quest to wear a bikini for the first time whilst on holiday and I am aiming to lose 23lbs or a stone and a half pretty much. Have already lost 3 pounds of this just by the lack of appetite I've been having and to quote Justin, I'm loving it!!

Have you seen him?

My boyfriend, I mean. I've had no 'night night' text. I like a 'night night' text. It says 'you are the last person I want talk to/ think of before I go to sleep', but, obviously my boyfriend is just fine snoozing with no 'night night' text so I will do the same.


Night night xXx

What Ever Next!!

The ceremony was, in a word, awesome!! The page boy cried all the way to the front row, the flower girl was so speedy that if you blinked you missed her and the bride burst into tears at her first sight of the groom!  
My reading came and went without a hitch and the vows whilst not quite as seamless were completed eventually. The signing of the contract was down to the timeless 'Beauty and the Beast"...felt a little uncomfortable for the groom at this point. 

After the service was over we headed outside for photographs. This was quite a windy climb, battling the elements. I know more than one girl were the victims of an unfortunate breeze!  

The photos were taken quickly and in no time at all I was sat at the Ariel table ready to eat a meal of salad roll (I don't eat pate that came with it), roast potatoes with gravy (I don't eat turkey, broccoli or carrots that came with it) and chocolate fudge cake with cream (I ate EVERYTHING that came with it!) 

The speeches were comedy gold! Very very well done and soon after we could be found back in our pajamas waiting for the evenings festivities to begin...

When it comes to back combing, no much is too much!

We greeted the day bright and early. Mainly because the bride couldn't sleep but also because my alarm went off. So at 7:30 we could be found eating a full English with sleepy eyes and knotted stomachs.

The morning quickly became a blur of netting and hairspray. I somehow became unofficial hairdresser to the bridal party. However, take note, by offering do something (like hair for example) you get to be in more photos as the photographer wanted action shots ha! Am looking forward to the shots with my arms up the front of the brides dress trying to get her out of a corset without removing her dress!

After a quick glass of poo I was downstairs, my wine stained reading clutched in my sweaty hand, waiting for the service to begin...

Ju? It's Jane.....Jewish Jane?

This weekend was my cousins wedding. I have been looking forward to this wedding for a very long time. For the past two years we have sat in our jammies with a (large) bag of chocolate, discussing rings, proposals, dresses, first dances etc. And whilst my day dreams drifted further away from me, hers became very much a reality, and on Friday it was so close we could almost taste it. (What we actually tasted was burger chips and cider from the bar in the hotel!)

The night before the big day was perfect. Just the bride, her sister and mother, myself and my other cousin. We ate, we drank, we practiced walking down the aisle and reading our speeches. It was like a slumber party but there was definately an air of something ending surrounding us. We were sending the first one of us into the great unkown of married life. That night I was asleep as soon as my head felt the pillow beneath it, the bride to be however, did not have such a peaceful night...

I won't make a habit of this but...

So, I don't want this to be an angsty or deep feelingy blah blah blah type of blog but sometimes you don't need to thank someone for them to know you're grateful and other times, it's good to hear someone appreciates the things you do for them.

I wasn't the first, I won't be the last, but, what feels like a long time ago now, I was hurt. Badly. The kind of hurt that people will tell you you'll get over and you just want to tell them you won't, and that they can't tell you that you will because no one else has never been hurt like this. And they also say that a friend in need is a friend indeed. It was at this point that I found a friend. A friend who had no agenda other than wanting to help. A friend who I hadn't had any contact with in a long while, and yet at the first sign of my suffering, they were there. And for this I say thank you.

This friend would listen to me ramble and never tell me where to go but who would offer words of comfort. At a time when i felt broken this person not only showed me i could believe in people again but also made it remarkably easy. And for that I say thank you.

Now, as I said, it is not my intention to reveal my inner feelings here. I just wanted to let someone know and as a reminder to myself that now I'm on the other side I can fully apprecite the wonderful support that was given to me. And that now I can look forward, I am happy that I can do it with a friend holding my hand x x

The first nibblet is the hardest...best get it over with quickly!

Ok. So ,my boyfriend has a blog. He can look back and see what he was doing/ thinking/ feeling at a given date by a the click of a button. Yes I mocked him, as is my job as girlfriend to do so, however, I would like to be able to look back also and remember events more clearly (as the aging process is now upon me)

Do I expect anyone to read it? No. As I said, it is not for that purpose. Do I accept that I am talking to myself? I do.

And with all that confirmed, I shall begin...